yesterday was incredible! olivia took me and sarah bak!!! i am so happy and nothing made me frwn that day i was crying with joy! when i saw her my eyes filled with tears i coudnt believe i was there.......and i hugged her so many times and it was amazing to see her agin. i am never going to let her slip out of my hands again! me and sarah and her just caught up and talked bout old imes....it was fun ....like how we used to. i kept thanking god! at first i was afraid it was a dream when she invited us over...but it wasnt.....and if it were i wouldnt wanna wake up! i am so happy...miracles can happen!

today was crappy...i woke up and i had a migrain my mommy let me sleep and when i got up round 10:30 no one was home except for jeremy who was sleeping. so i called my mom and she said my dad was on a job interview and wouldnt be home till late.......and she couldnt take me so i was bummed. i wanted to go......i hate missing......and my brownie! o well i kinda just hung round and i watched braveheart. it was excellant! freedom....what a word! then i called liv and we talked for a long time. so i had a good day....but i am excited to go to school tomorrow!

i dont feel like typing bout all the things i am thinking bout......i will some other time i am going to take in every minute of today and cherish it because i have been having a good one!

x0x0 ||| crissy |||

hey so last night was a blast! and i felt like such a kid again it is was just stupindess! and afterwards liz came home with me and spent the night which was great because we like connect and it is so awesome how we can just talk bout anything! it is so easy. and i luv her so much. shes a great person and o unique....in a good way that is. we watched pokemon....haha!

i had been thiking lately....since god has a whole plan for us and knows everythough we have and all this stuff and he planned it all....i feel useless bacause i cant chage it and i am jus something to watch? and when i am sad does he wnt me to be.... i have been questioning his authority a lot lately but al i wan t r some answeres.

i sure hope god has an exciing plan for me.

i dont have much to say except that i miss my sarah so badly........i want to b with her. even if we r standing in a kitchen eating ice cream we can make it so much fun. we r just weird like that. but i wouldnt want it anyother way. it is amazing to think that the first day i came to atlanta i met her...it was like our destiny. i still am so happy i did though cause i would pobably b in a bad situation if i didnt meet her. i luv her more than she can imagine! muah*

xoxo ||| crissy |||

hello u people who r reading this. i am currently on the phone with sarah and it is one of those pointless phone calls....but it isnt pointless. hehehe. so then hehe said haha. so hehe was like now my name is gonna b haha because i am not a boy. and i am not either so me and hehe(now haha) will b friends. so haha!

last night as i was sitting in my bed i looked to my left and i saw my stuffed animals. and a vision from look whos talking came to my mind.....his animals and action figures came to life and had RED eyes! so as i sat i was scared of them coming and strangling because i didnt play with them anymore i had to smack myself bak into reality because they r FLUFF...they dont have ligaments or a brain to even think. there is my story and i am finally not afraid of stuffed animals! haha! eyah i know i am 14! but i know people r still afriad of E.T. so uhhhh back off.

u knwo how people make a trend and most people follow it....like now everyone wants to skateboard and play the guitar and stuff.....but like the past years was wearing abercrombie clothes. i used to follow the crowd but i just dont want to anymore......i wanna b my own person. and not b discrimated against cause i dont have enough money for high quality clothes. sometimes i can just see people constantly changin to fit in and i wanna know who they really are.......well i think that is it on that.

when should u say no? what if u r in love and u r underage....should u have sex? what if u r depressed should u do drugs and drink? i want to beable to say no to both of those i really do and i know i will always say no to drugs and drinking cause of my bother. but what bout sex? i wanna beable to have sex after i am married and i am in luve. but wha if i really fall in love when i am 17.....do i say yes to it? one of those questions i ponder about.

x0x0 ||| crissy |||

HAPPY ST~PATTYS DAY! it aint like a humongo holiday but i like it cause it is all bout green. the bomb digidy color! i luv green! o that sthexy tent that makes me think of trees, grasss, nature.....o yeah and MONEY!! weee! wish i had more of that! hehe! today was fun....except for in the beggining we went to see a play called Julius Ceasar in our gym and i couldnt see and i had no idea wha they were saying so i gave up and sat there talking to emily and brian and we played with our hands....skin is interesting! haha! but the rest of the day was fun......especially the bus. but u know a bus is always fun.

my friend marcie had a pin that said kiss me im irish and i made a sign but that made me take it off :( but thats okay cause at church tonight i am wearing one that says kick me im irish! hehehe....i know i am hilarious! haha yeah! badododdododobooom!

i get to go to indiana this summer! all by myself on a airplane  of course i will get special attention snince i am underaged! hehe! but i am thrilled i get to stay with my favorite aunt....and i get to see my cousins. so when i get bak expect me to b a big 8 year old! haha ill b all lets play barbies! weeee! i am also going to boca grande with sarah....ooooo sthexy! i am so excited i am like i want school to end NOW! but first before i go i must find out if i will b on my period during that time.....that would b bad! other places im going.....florida to see my moms friends daughter who is also my friend ....she has a horse!! and shes sweet! older too.......camp my mommy wants me too but i am telling her i dont have to cause it will b already expensive but ofcourse i wanna go. ok i am gonna shut up i am just real excited bout the summer.

did u ever find urself thinking that u were really in love with someone even though he/she didnt notice u? i wish i had that passionate love for someone. like my little secret. but i dont...and thats ok cause i am sure soon i will find someone in highschool who will find me staring at him. and then i would turn my head. ive never had the kind of courage people have to go to my crush and say i like u. hoiw can u do that i would shake and get all hot. o well..

liz is coming over friday night!! i am so excited to see her and just talk. we have a lot of catching up to do. i can just look at her and see her smile and know that she is hiding something. nott that the smile is fake but i just have this feeling she has something in her heart deep down that she doesnt want to share with anyone and i want to be the one to talk to her. there might not b anything .....which is probably true but if there is...........i wanna b the one she shares it with then i will know she trusts me. but if liz is reading this ....and if im wrong im sry for making such a judgement. u seem happy but i know something is hurting u.

xoxo ||| crissy |||

today was good. i went to school of course and had my share of torcher....especially when s.s came along. i like mr.rountree and all but sometimes the things he says ticks me off! so i told him my opinions cause i wasnt gonna pretend like he was right cause sometimes he wasnt. so after class when i was walking to my connections class he told me good job on my arguements so it made me happy he actually litened to me.

when i got on the bus....WHOA! i got a burst of energy and it was so much fun! me brittany matt and john were having a grand ol' time. i was lughing makeing these weird remarks and singing and then brittany was just being brittany of course. and john well everyoone knows hes funny! and matt was in his corneer making these funny remarks to. so we were all laughing and singing a song caleb made up last courter when i was sitting at lunch with him...and it goes like this

" if ya got too much food and ur full just just just just call on bull! "

if u dont know hwo bull is im sry cause he just eats a lot sweet guy and all but eats a lot. and caleb can b so cruel sometimes that it is funny like when he makes fun f nagga. or howvea u spell his name. i hate making fun of people but it happens all the time! to me especially. u kinda had to be there but if u were u would have peed ur paints i ran home and was laughing on the toilet! haha!

life is worth living! and people who dont agree r just really depressed cause there is always something u look bak on and remember that big smile u had. i do and i wanna redo it again in my mind over and over. sure there r days that r terrible but when u equal it all out.....i would have to say there r better ones. like the days u just stay home bored or when u r in ur bed sick missing school. u feel bad but hey ur not in school. even the people in poverty can have great days. they have so much fun with the stuff they have. they play in the mud or play with sticks and pretend they r swords. and they leap for joy when they get a new shirt or some shoes. i wanna make everyone have as many good days as they can! and i am going to find a way to do that. that is my goal!

xoxo ||| crissy |||